How’s that for a Happy New Year

Well here it is, I’m getting ready to start a New Year a mess. You know everyone is getting ready to celebrate, start refreshed. I’m starting out in more debt that I can afford. Getting ready to do mass layoffs at my offices and possibly on the brink of bankruptcy. How’s that for a Happy New Year. I’m sitting here wasting my time thinking of ways to turn it around, really feeling that I just don’t want to do this again.  The constant decision making of a small business owner. The firing of employees who just seek retaliation. How’s that for a Happy New Year.  I should be making lists of goals, dreams, aspirations. Instead of counting each cent wondering how I’ll make the next payroll. Wondering where it all went wrong.  I’m going to let down everyone. My parents, my husband, and worse my kids. How’s that for a Happy New Year. As I sit here I think of the good times, the times were money was plentiful and how I complained then.  Had I only known where I would be today, I would have reveled in those days. So while everyone else is toasting to a New Year, I’m not sure I’ll even have one.  Id like to say I’m going to turn this all around and be a success story. I’d like to say I’ll be able to find a way and will coach millions to their own success, but that’s not how I feel. I don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel.  So while you are out there toasting, dancing, feeling refreshed for the New Year please understand there are some out there who are worried how to pay the rent the next day.  There are some there who aren’t sure how to make their next payroll so their employees can feed their families. Understand that a New Year doesn’t always mean a fresh start for everyone. How’s that for a Happy New Year.